I was someone where I put fear in the driver's seat most of my life. And one of the things I'm learning on this path, with stage four, is relegating fear to the backseat.
Grief is much broader in terms of dealing with loss, including when there's an idea of loss. Maybe that loss is going to happen in 20 years or something like that. That can be a thing. That was really helpful just to think about … the better you deal with it, the better you're able to provide for other people.
It feels like it goes faster and faster. It's like you're trying to plug a hole that's leaking more and more and more but all you can do is try to plug the hole ... People have different ways of coping and it’s easy to feel guilty about the time you take to cope with the stuff you're dealing with because you're not spending that time living life to the fullest.