I believe in Chanukah miracles. Today I am just over one year into my metastatic, triple negative breast cancer diagnosis and treatment. When I was first diagnosed, I thought my life was over. I expected constant pain and suffering, nausea, and not being able to get out of bed. I thought I would have to quit my job. I imagined myself lying in my bed with the room spinning – which was how I felt in 2008 when I had my first breast cancer diagnosis (Stage III ER +).
Just for today, laugh out loud, sing a song, be assertive, be silly, be happy, be strong. Just for today do it all once and then if you liked it tomorrow do it all once again.
It's just hair. I know people were trying to comfort me, but that's just one of those trigger phrases, like, it's just hair. No, it's not.
A friend of mine said to me recently, 'Have you always been this positive?' Which I thought was a funny reaction to a conversation where I was being what I think of as my pretty cynical self. But I think what he was noting was my level of acceptance … and I just can't use all the emotional energy to be angry or frustrated.